living in dirty clothes and dirtier motels

I don’t know to this day the reason for me driving so slowly up the double width drive way. I was either delaying the inevitable knowing that once I walk in that house nothing will be the same again or I was hoping whoever it was, was going to walk out at any moment and that I would confront them. I reached my garage door by driving past the nicely polished dark gray BMW. I was tempted to get out of my car and scratch my car key right down the side of the door. All the hate that was building up in me began to leak out. I wanted revenge.

I resisted the temptation to bang his door as I got out my car. I left my suitcase in the boot, as there was a good chance I would be walking straight back out the house again. I would be living in dirty clothes and dirtier motels whilst my life fell apart around me.

I relived the memories of our wedding day, our first date, the birth of our children and knew it was all about to end today. End in a matter of minutes. I paused. I contemplated just what I was going to do when I walked in the house. Would I do it quietly to catch them at it? Would I make some noise to give them the chance to stop what they were doing and make a feeble excuse that I would believe? Anything for a quiet life I thought. I then thought about all my stuff in the loft and if I left, I would have to sort all that out. There is a good few day’s work in itself. Was it really worth it? I decided on the quiet approach.

I slowly took out my door keys from tighter jeans pocket and pushed the key suggestively into the keyhole. I was tempted to pull it out and push it back a few times but that would be childish. That is what is going on upstairs right now in my own bed! The door slowly opened revealing the open hallway. As I looked to my left, I was caught completely off guard. They were on the sofa. They were in the front room. Did they have no shame? My wife stood up looking quite surprised, which is to be expected, as I was not due home for another few days. Then he stood up. I must have looked just as surprised as my wife must have when he turned round and I saw whom it was.